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Remus and Dora
I started working on this about two years ago and I've only just decided to post it. Currently unfinished, but I have about 7 chapters done and the rest of it outlined.
And so it begins...

Title: Where I Belong
Author: Claire
Fandom: Harry Potter (OotP)
Rating: G (for now)
Pairing: Remus Lupin/Nymphadora Tonks
Chapter: 1/?

What was it about him that was so fascinating? Was it the peaceful expression he wore while he read? The way his voice was somehow soft and hoarse at the same time? His soulful amber eyes? How he always knew the best way to diffuse a situation? It was all these things and more. There seemed to be no end to his perfection.

Even as she thought these things, Tonks knew she was being silly. For heaven's sake, I sound like a lovesick teenager! she scolded herself, making a mental note not to stare at Remus during meetings. She noticed that Sirius was giving her a strange look and sincerely hoped it was only because she'd turned her hair lime green. Apparently, she'd been so busy contemplating Remus that she'd completely missed the meeting- all around her, people hoisted themselves to their feet. Blinking in surprise, she quickly stood up, but having not paid much attention to the reports and instructions she'd just sat through, she wasn't sure what exactly she should do next.


That voice sent a thrill down her spine. It even made her ridiculous name sound wonderful!

“It's Tonks, Remus.”

As he gazed into her upturned face, his breath caught in his throat. Why did she have that effect on him? He was too old, much too old, to be feeling that way, especially about someone like her.

“I believe Mad-Eye is waiting for you,” he said softly. Tonks spun around to see the maimed Auror watching her intently. That expression on his face... did he know?

“Er, right then, I guess I'll be- oh!” Her foot caught on the rung of her chair and she faceplanted on the cold stone floor. Why in front of him? Why always in front of him? True, she'd been clumsy all her life, but lately it had gotten even worse.

Remus helped her to her feet. “You should really watch out for those chairs. That's the third time this week.”

“Yes, you keep getting clumsier and clumsier all the the time,” Mad-Eye growled, his magical eye fixed on her in a way that made her rather nervous.

“I noticed that as well. Any particular reason, Tonks?” asked Sirius, an unsettling smirk playing across his wasted face. That was never a good sign.

“Er, no! Nothing at all,” Tonks answered quickly. Damn, that sounded suspicious. “Distracted, I s'pose. Had a lot to think about lately, what with the Order and all.”

“Really? Because you didn't seem to be paying attention to the meeting. In fact, it rather looked like you were st-”

“Better be going now, loads of paperwork at the office, I 'spect. G'night Sirius, Remus.” Grabbing Mad-Eye's sleeve, Tonks rushed out of the kitchen. Stupid prat, she thought furiously. Trying to humiliate me. Bet he's telling Remus right now!

At that moment, Sirius was indeed voicing his suspicions.

“She fancies you, you know,” he said casually, watching for his friend's reaction.

Remus was incredulous. “Don't be absurd, Padfoot. What could she possibly see in me?” There was a note of dejection in his voice that would have gone unnoticed by anyone who didn't know him as well as Sirius did.

“You- you fancy her too, don't you?” The old mischievous gleam returned to his eyes as Remus objected. “You do! I knew it! That look on your face when she told us that story about posing as a Death Eater – it was obvious!” Remus needed a bird to help him loosen up a bit, and Sirius would welcome any distraction from the otherwise dismal existence he called his life. This was just the thing!

Remus heaved a sigh, knowing from experience that allowing his old friend to carry on in this vein would only lead them to an eventual argument. “Listen to me,” he said firmly. “I do not think of Tonks as anything more than a friend. She is a warm, intelligent, witty young woman, and I have a great deal of respect for her. That is all.”

Sirius regarded his friend thoughtfully for a moment. “You've got it that bad, Moony? Then I'll not tease you about it.” He stretched his arms over his head and sauntered to the door. “Well, I'm off to bed then. 'Night.”

Remus warily watched him leave. It wouldn't do to let her know – the best he could hope for was pity. There was no chance someone as vibrant and lively as Tonks would give him a second thought.

He sighed and rose from the table. It was nearly the full moon, and his body ached in expectation of the impending transformation. It had become slightly more bearable now that he had Sirius for company again, almost like it had been in their Hogwarts days. But that didn't change the fact that he was painfully lonely, and always would be. Nothing could reverse his isolation from the others. When he was young and full of dreams, the Marauders made him feel like he was really human, really one of them. But that feeling was gone forever; he would never again find that kind of acceptance. He and Sirius were both outcasts now, but for Sirius there was always the possibility of the truth being revealed and his name cleared. For Remus, there would be no reprieve from the reality that he was a werewolf. 

Current Mood: nervous nervous

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yo_dono From: yo_dono Date: August 18th, 2007 05:01 pm (UTC) (Link)
OMG I L O V E your Sirius *____________________* Can I marry him - pretty please? xDDD
*cough* Anyway, you did a great job, sweetie! *huggles* Want more! ^_____^
baka_hanyou From: baka_hanyou Date: August 19th, 2007 05:58 am (UTC) (Link)
Wai, you actually read it?? ^o^ *glomps you* You make me so happy! <33333

Umm... I kind of already married my Sirius, but I'll share him with you. ^^; Y'know, it's amazing how easy it is to get out of practice. Back in my prime, I used to do a chapter a day when I was working on a fanfic, but now I have to "edit" and "revise" and "make it less shitty". -_-;

So thank you for reading it!! <33333333333333333 *kisu*
yo_dono From: yo_dono Date: August 20th, 2007 01:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
Of course I did, silly! *huggles* <33333

What a pity .__. *cries* xDDD Oh you would? *______* That must be a dream come true *_____* Married to you AND Sirius! *dies in eternal happiness* xDDD Ha ha, me, too. Back then I had so many ideas and I wrote so much and now? All I write from time to time is a single page xD Besides, I kinda had a better style back then >__>;; *embarrassed*

Don't thank me, it was my pleasure x33333 *pokes nose* xD
baka_hanyou From: baka_hanyou Date: August 22nd, 2007 12:30 am (UTC) (Link)
Awwwwww, you're so sweet!! x33333333

No crying! o_____o; Of course I would!! Getting to have you and Sirius is my greatest dream! <3333333 Oh yeah, we'd have the best polygamous marriage ever! YouxMexSirius=OT3!! <3333333333333 xDDDDD Heh, yeah, isn't it weird how things change as you get older? xDDD I doubt it! I bet your style is just as good now as it was then, maybe better! <33333

Was it really? ... Because I posted another chapter. *hides under couch*
yo_dono From: yo_dono Date: August 22nd, 2007 09:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
Learned from the best x3333

Aw ;________________; I feel so loved! *glomps both of you* Let's be one happy family, then! ^_______^ Hey! Why do I have to be in the middle? xDDDDDD Yeah... xD No, it's not~ *whines* I wish I would bring my lazy ass to write something in English so I could show you... But usually when I write it's... Well it's due to a special feeling I have and I just let the words flow without thinking and writing in English WOULD make me think at some point... Damn >__>;

Oh you're wonderful *____* *goes to read it right now*
baka_hanyou From: baka_hanyou Date: August 26th, 2007 06:40 am (UTC) (Link)
Yourself? xDDDD

You ARE loved!! <33333 *happily glomps back* Yes, one big happy family! We'll get lots of puppies! ^_____________^ You don't have to be in the middle- I'll gladly be in the middle! >:D xDDDDD Well you should write things in whatever language you're most comfortable with. I need to learn German anyway. xDDDDD

No, YOU are wonderful. *kisu*
yo_dono From: yo_dono Date: August 26th, 2007 02:34 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ha ha xPPP You little joke cookie! ......... Sorry, inside Denglish joke |D''' Couldn't resist lol

Aww~~ And so are you! *kisses* x3 Puppies, indeed... xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ... Sorry xDDDDDDDDDDDD''' Well... put that way... how about we switch from time to time? xDDDDDD Heh, I'll teach you some day x3 But you know... the day before yesterday... I actually wrote something in English. But I guess it's pretty pointless xD'''

Naw x3
baka_hanyou From: baka_hanyou Date: September 1st, 2007 07:12 am (UTC) (Link)
... Joke cookie? xDDDDDDDDD

Wai! ^o^ *kisu* Of course puppies! xDDDDDDDDDDD Hmm, I guess we can switch every once in a while if you want... xDDDDDDDD When we get an apartment together you can teach me to speak German. <33333 You did?? Can I read it? ^^

Yes. <3
yo_dono From: yo_dono Date: September 4th, 2007 02:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, well xDDD In German we say "joke cookie" if someone tries to be funny but kinda fails; it's very ironic xDDDD And during our trip to Dublin we translated German idioms directly into English, just for fun xDDDDDD

*huggles* ^____^ Cute little black puppies *____* ... Black... puppies.... *giggles* |DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ... sorry xDDDD Oh, that would be nice, hehe xDDDDD Yepp, then I can teach you aaaall day x3 I dunno... I think it's really crappy >___>;
baka_hanyou From: baka_hanyou Date: September 5th, 2007 01:12 am (UTC) (Link)
Oh, I see... WAIT A MINUTE!! You mean you were MOCKING me in translated German idioms?? xDDDDDDDDDD You're the best, Yo. <333333

*snorfles* Black puppies! Perfect! See, THIS is why I married you- you're at the same level of crazy amusement as I am. <333333 ^_______________^ xDDDDDDDDDDDD Well, you can teach me when we're not otherwise occupied... *wiggles eyebrows* >:DDDDDDDD I siriusly doubt that. *tries to keep a straight face*
yo_dono From: yo_dono Date: September 9th, 2007 03:52 am (UTC) (Link)
No, not exactly xDDD I was just pointing out that you were making fun of me in the first place! xDDDDDD Lol thank you xDDD <3333

We're a perfect fit (can you say that? x__X;) <33333333333333 *huggle squishes*
Always my dear, always *smiles charming smile* xDDDDDDD Are YOU mocking me? T^T xDDDD Well, I'll reread it tomorrow maybe and if I think it won't kill you with it's crappiness I'll give it to you... maybe |D *ducks* <333
baka_hanyou From: baka_hanyou Date: September 9th, 2007 05:11 am (UTC) (Link)
I wasn't making fun of you! YOU were making fun of ME in TRANSLATED GERMAN IDIOMS!! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD *kisu* <3333

We are! (Yes, it's a well-known phrase. <3333) *kiiiiiisuuuuuuu* <33333333333
*is completely charmed* Oh Yo... *sparkly eyes* <3333333333333333333333333 Of course not!! Well if you feel like it, I'd love to read it. *huggle squishes*
yo_dono From: yo_dono Date: September 10th, 2007 09:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
NO I WASN'T! I mean, not really! xDDDDDDDD <3

Hehe! (Good xD')*blissful sigh* xD <3333333333
LOLZ This is not gonna work, honey xDDD ... and I still didn't reread it >__>; It's on my laptop, I'll turn it on right now and do it in bed today. Hah. |D Thanks <333
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